About me

I'm a middle aged guy struggling to survive with my physical health and with mental health problems that belie my intelligence and creativity. I feel I like I'm walking a cliff edge that is crumbling because I'm just expected to keep going as I have been but there are elements of my mental health getting worse, I think because of age and because the struggle wears the mind down.  I've always been an anxious person. Depression kicked in later with the suicide of my best friend and caring for my mother who had Alzheimer's but I was always a pretty strange person sociable yet awkward in so many ways. Now my problem is organising myself or focussing on anything, because I'm so easily distracted and forgetful in the moment but it is so frequent I make constant mistakes and forget to complete tasks or take so long to do them.